That's when the irony hit me...


Sunday, December 28, 2008
title: Christmas with a Captial "C" by Go Fish

^angriest anti-"happy holidays" song i've ever heard. seriously, that was rude. if you feel like saying happy holidays instead of merry christmas is being "ashamed of the savior" then say merry christmas. if you, like me, see that there are plenty of other holidays being celebrated at this time and would like to wish EVERYONE a happy december, go for it

why does everything have to be a fight!
-katie

Posted by Katie at 28.12.08 | 3 comments
Monday, December 15, 2008
title: Christmas Eve is Here, French Carol

i am not happy.
i am fucking pissed off.
i am angry with the stupid fucktards in my choir who don't care.
i am angry with mr. hassig for putting people in concert choir who possess neither the talent, nor the desire to try.
i am angry that we can't sing higher level songs because some people can't handle it.
i am angry that these people dare to talk.
i am fucking pissed.

so the freshmen boys screwed up, they're freshmen. but to everyone in concert choir who decides daily they're too good to sing, fuck you.

just let me have this choir. just let me have this thing that i love.
just fuck off.
-katie

Posted by Katie at 15.12.08 | 3 comments
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
title: I Wanna Marry You All Over Again by Derek Webb

so many mature things. i'll list them in order of consequence to me(least to most):

first: gihan's sister is pregnant. really this of no consequence to me at all, except that her other son is freak ADORABLE and another cute baby never hurt anyone. makes me think about when my friends will be having babies. it isn't as far away as you'd think. just something to ponder.

second: this one is the most shocking and not at the same time. i found out my friend is proposing to his girlfriend. most likely, next week.
next. week.
they want to marry before september for some reasons i won't specify. she wants to take time off school.
she's only nineteen. he's twenty-one. their so young.
i've fought this engagement for a long time. i've stopped fighting though. i might as well support them. not like me being against it will change anything.
it's just so crazy to think that i have friends who are getting MARRIED

third: I GOT MY UMD ACCEPTANCE LETTER! i'm so happy! i'm so ready to start!!! i want college!!!!!!
-katie

Posted by Katie at 10.12.08 | 2 comments
title: (i don't know the title) by Jeff Conway

that song was played on celebrity rehab with dr. drew by one of the patients. it's a cool show. scary as hell.

short blog, just letting y'all know where i've been.

Monday night:
my left it is super pink and super itchy and hurts to keep open. this made writing gov essays hard because i'm extremely left eye dominant. my right eye is awful.

Tuesday:
my mom insists i stay home from school in case i have pink eye so i don't spread it. but i went to the doctor and it wasn't pink eye at all. just allergies. but i suppose i got out of the gov test so, whatever.

Tuesday night:
so i'm taking a shower and out of nowhere i get super dizzy and light headed. i felt really weak and i was scared to death that i would faint. for the rest of the night i felt like i was on the verge of throwing up and weaker than ever.

Wednesday morning:
still weak. still have puked but ready to at any moment.
no school

i'll be back tomorrow i proooooooooooooooooomise!!!!!!
-katie

Posted by Katie at 10.12.08 | 4 comments
Sunday, December 7, 2008
title: In Like a Lion (Always Winter) by Relient K

maaaaaad love for that song. anything referencing the chronicles of narnia deserve mad love though.

it's funny i was just listening to that song and i look out my window and the snow started to fall gently. as the song progressed and began to swell the snow fell harder and became wilder and blew every which way. i was elated.

snow brings out the kid in me. i can't get enough of sitting and watching it fall. listening to its silence. i'm not so crazy that i love it in march, don't get me wrong. winter gets old. but this time of year it's truly, and i know this is a rampant cliche, magical.

right now another christmas favorite is playing. Peace is Here by Jars of Clay. beautiful

i love christmas. i love everything it stands for. last year i wrote a blog on christmas eve about love. it is probably my second favorite thing i have ever composed (followed by another blog i've reposted many times). last year i had this great plan to write about certain things on the week leading up to christmas, but it didn't happen, and that was okay.

i hope i can get out in the snow soon and just walk. i haven't yet this season. i've had the best conversations walking in the snow. i've been kicked out a park in the snow (a wonderful way to end a date by the way XD), i've talked about signicance, i've talked about the future, i've talked about the past. all encompassed in the silence of the snow falling around me.

one of my favorite things kayla has ever said to me while staring at the sky, snow falling in her face:
"i feel so small and significant."

so complain about it if you must, but i love the snow. i think i'll go watch it some more now.

peace is here.
-katie

Posted by Katie at 7.12.08 | 1 comments