title: Burn Out Bright by Switchfoot

i want this song played at my funeral, and let this be the official documentation of my wishes. i also want Stars I Shall Find.

so i really didn't know what to type about today until just a few moments ago. lately i've been having a lot of trouble with christians. i feel like they're completely missing the point. i think Jesus's message was painfully clear. it's simple. it's not easy to carry out, but it is easy to understand. i feel like christians have complicated it for no reason. really how hard is it: do what God says, and trust that He's in control

HE'S IN CONTROL FOLKS! God wasn't kidding when He said He's got it covered, He really, really does.

so leslie came over a little while ago and my mom was telling her about the "date" she and my dad went on saturday night. part of their date was going to steve's church, River of Joy. what she descibed was what i wanted. i really want to talk to steve now. when i hear steve i feel reassured. sometimes i have to wonder if i'm hearing God correctly. have you ever considered that so many people have done things this way for so long, what makes me think i know more? how can i think i know better than generations of believers. this is how i know:

King David
the Apostle Paul
Martin Luther
Martin Luther King Jr.
Aida Skripnikova
Anne Lamott
Donald Miller
Craig Gross
Jay Bakker
Jonathan Foreman
Jamie Tworkowski
Steve Bonesho

and of course

Jesus the one and only Christ

oh yes, this people make me feel like i'm in the right. i know what i'm doing. okay...i lied. i have no clue what i'm doing, but i know that i'm going in the right direction, and i know where to find the answers (that last guy usually helps me out of scrapes). so i'm thinking that there's hope for us after all.

well it's pretty hard to write about Jesus when your listening to My Chemical Romance's "Teenagers"

i love you

-katie*