That's when the irony hit me...

Thursday, February 26, 2009

title: Wade in de Water by ?????

do you ever find yourself being holden? (it helps if you read Catcher in the Rye i suppose...) i do. i know i do. to an alarming degree, i identify with this child.

i've very good at finding reasons not to like people. god, i'm an expert at it. i find myself saying silly little things like "she talks way too much," "she's so self-centered," and my all time favorite: "they're just so immature,"

the last one is the most interesting, and concerning in my opinion. how can i, at the age of eighteen, claim to be more mature than my peers. i'm not saying that i don't believe i am, because i certainly do, but why do i think i have the ultimate authority on this matter? why do i get to decide?

the answer is i don't. i dont' get to say that. i don't get to say i'm more mature than someone else. i've always been someone with a short fuse. not in the sense that i'm angered easily, but more that i'm annoyed easily. very easily. i don't take the time and patience people need and deserve. i do believe that i am more mature than most people in my grade. it's not unfounded either, i'm also one of the oldest people in my grade. one of my best friends is older too (marissa's only three weeks younger than me), and the other...well i think she's just old for her age (miss jenna, the young'un).

i don't want to isolate so much anymore, but at the same time, i'm not interested in the group of friends i've been in for years. i'm just so discontented. i don't know what i want.

GAH!

-holden caulfield

Posted by Katie at 26.2.09

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At February 27, 2009 at 10:09 AM, Carol said........

Kaite, at this moment, I'm sitting here, at open where six people (five of them boys) are crowed around a computer watching people fall from balconies.

You're a table away, doing homework.

Right now, you are leagues ahead of them in maturity.

At February 27, 2009 at 11:11 AM, Alexandra Fritz Projects said........

Haha I like Meghan's comment a lot xD

Fact: My dad's life story is so exactly like Holden Caulfield's that is kind of scares me.

Well.... minus the failed attempts to sleep with prostitutes... I think...

At February 27, 2009 at 3:08 PM, Jay said........

I wouldn't say I'm up to your level of maturity, Miss Katie. I have always been kind of an old soul, but my goodness I can act like a little kid, too.

Meghan: HAHAHAHA

Alex: I'm fairly certain your father has failed in all his attempts to sleep with prostitutes. It's a fact I leanred on a fact-finding mission in Cancun.

At February 28, 2009 at 6:56 PM, Chuckles said........

Katie: The fact that you your level of maturity merely proves your the fact that you're more mature than most people. also, maturity is not being jaded and denying your emotions, but using your logic to understand the basis of those emotions, and respecting people you might have negative emotions towards.

Meghan: your definition of maturity is twisted and incorrect. Maturity is being true to yourself and allowing yourself to have fun. Again, strangle-holding your emotions is not maturity. By the way, I take GREAT offense to your comment.

At February 28, 2009 at 6:57 PM, Chuckles said........

that you question your maturity* (for above)

At March 1, 2009 at 12:12 AM, Chuckles said........

I listed other people sins, not out of hate, but because I thought it was interesting, and i had reassigned the definitions of said sins.

I have clarified what I meant by Ms. Kelsy and such, and if I was the only who has ever complained about others, then you may correct me. I am merely honest about how i feel about people.

thirdly, I have never said that I was mature and I'm not. In the sense of maturity, i'm stuck back as how i was in 6th grade and i know this :D.

lastly, I guess the reason I take offense to it is that she's calling me immature, but the act immature, enjoyment is not a sign of immaturity (I also was not affected by the reference to myself, but the other 5, and the fact that she seemed to find a need to list the number of boys present)

At March 1, 2009 at 8:55 AM, Katie said........

james just stop. no one wants to hear what you have to say anymore.

At March 1, 2009 at 2:47 PM, Chuckles said........

But why does no one want to hear what I have to say?

At March 1, 2009 at 3:58 PM, Carol said........

James, if you admit your immature, why do you take offense to it? That, and it was not the act of watching videos, it more of the fact you and others derive said enjoyment from the pain of others.

At March 1, 2009 at 4:11 PM, Katie said........

i can only speak for myself, but i know that i am sick of hearing your condesending words. i do not want to hear you back track on things you should not have said in the first place, and i just plain don't care about what you have to say.

how's that?

At March 1, 2009 at 4:47 PM, Chuckles said........

I do see it, but can you clarify what you mean by condescending?

At March 1, 2009 at 5:16 PM, Katie said........

con⋅de⋅scend⋅ing [kon-duh-sen-ding]
–adjective showing or implying a usually patronizing descent from dignity or superiority

i meant exactly what i said james, i don't think anything needs to be clarified.

At March 1, 2009 at 5:23 PM, Chuckles said........

well, yes it does, because i'm lost as to how i am acting that way, I guess i don't see it. maybe some ways i'm acting that way?

At March 2, 2009 at 6:21 AM, Chuckles said........

nevermind, I've figured out how I was.