That's when the irony hit me...
title: Supermassive Blackhole by Muse
this is so stupid. i feel like i don't have an "image." i feel schizophrenic. jenna and i talked about it a bit once. sometimes i feel like super mod, and sometimes boho. i feel like a Christian, i feel secular.
i feel like one big contradiction. and i'm not sure what to do about it.
i know in the long run image doesn't matter, and that no one really fits any one mold, but it'd be nice to not straddle the line for everything. am i insane? am i unable to focuse or do i lack the talent? am i smart but unmotivated or just not good enough? am i clingy or push away?
people say you find yourself in college, but i remain unconvinced. i'm so afraid of myself i don't even know what to do sometimes.
i just want to fit somewhere y'know?
-katie
But when you think about it, how would you have the great view of the world that you have if you didn't come from a few different places?
Maybe we're scatterbrained; maybe we're schizophrenic; maybe we're suppose to melt all our interests into one personality, but haven't quite been able to fit it all in yet.
It's tough to say. I'm not sure if I'd want you to be just one type of person. I have one-dimensional friends...and they're not nearly as close to me as you are. Not nearly as ridiculous or mixed up or like me.
Maybe this is where we fit. Maybe we belong in the salad bowl personality. Maybe we're lucky. Maybe we don't need to find ourselves because this is who we are.