That's when the irony hit me...
title: How to Say Goodbye by Paul Tiernan
so this is going to sound really stupid, but i do have a point. some people know i like this band called switchfoot. who am i kidding! EVERYONE knows that. but through this band i became connected to these message boards called The Land of Broken Hearts (a line from the switchsong Golden). through this site you get to know the regulars, and form somewhat personal relationships. i know, i know, it's online, and i've never met these people, but we all talk on a regular basis (and not always about switchfoot). just two days ago i learned that one of these girls died. yeah, DIED. like she's gone. no longer living. dead.
that bothered me. not because i knew her exceptionally well (even though she made me a beautiful set that is to this day the best one i've ever had). she was fucking SEVENTEEN. how screwed up is that?! she died in a car accident. i was in a car a few times today. it could have been me...maybe it should have been. we'll never know why some live and some die, but it reminds us to all live our lives to the fullest.
i've been waiting to start my life. waiting for college. waiting to be on my own. what if i don't get there? what if i don't live past this year? do i want to leave this earth in waiting?
no.
my life has be painful lately, but liss reminds me to stay with it. to keep fighting for a better tomorrow, because each day is a chance to make it all better.
so in loving memory of liss, a beautiful soul who will be missed.
-katie*
ps- these are the lyrics to one of my favorite songs from Nick and Norah...look it up
How to Say Goodbye, by Paul Tienan
leaving isn't quite the same, he said to me,
as running away
if you're scared or tired of what you're scared of
well, why should you stay?
he loved to say goodbye
and always counted out the time
until he was free, to get up and leave
to learn how to breath
again
slipping out to have a cigarette with someone else that he'd never met
ask her if by the way would she like to run away
and try to forget?
or just not to stay, to leave without saying why
to get up and go
to catch the last train
to get in some car
and drive out again
to never come back this way....
and have to say....
goodbye
as running away
if you're scared or tired of what you're scared of
well, why should you stay?
he loved to say goodbye
and always counted out the time
until he was free, to get up and leave
to learn how to breath
again
slipping out to have a cigarette with someone else that he'd never met
ask her if by the way would she like to run away
and try to forget?
or just not to stay, to leave without saying why
to get up and go
to catch the last train
to get in some car
and drive out again
to never come back this way....
and have to say....
goodbye
You would never think one website could have such a community like this.
And even the ones that didn't know her are still impacted by the loss.
It's a bitter sweet thing. We've lost a spirit. But we're found again within each other and the unity we have.