Open Your Eyes by Snow Patrol

it's been awhile hasn't it? i'd love to say that's it's because i've been busy, but i'd be lying.

another season of change.
so i've decided that i'm a terribly backwards person. rehab=peace, divorce=love, and depression=beauty. what. the. fuck.

a few of you understand the closeness of that middle one to me. you might as well know. everything was made official on thursday as my sister had her braces on.

after dropping evelyn off my mom met with a lawyer named laurie (or lori...i can't remember) and signed the papers that would drastically change our lives.

yeah, my parents are getting divorced. i suppose this is the first time i've really acknowledged this so calmly. i mean i remember when i told gihan, i was falsely calm. when i told nick i was quiet. when i told marissa i was in hysterics. and technically i never told kayla, she just knew.

i'm not sad. i'm a little nervous about the change, but mostly i'm excited. is that sick? i dont' think it is...i've always like change, adn this is a new start. so far everyone whose found out has asked about details like the house, adn custody and such, but i'm not really concerned with those things.

the chaos isn't over. we're actually in a weird period right now. my dad doesn't know. my mom hasn't told evelyn yet either...i'm not sure how i feel about that.

the shit will it the fan soon, but i think this is a good thing. my life as been hell, and it'll be nice to have some real peace.

prayers are always welcome (and needed in the case of my dad)

i love you all
-katie*

ps- i'll write more about the divorce=love thing